Saturday, December 29, 2007

This Year is

Man I am glad to say
that! :D 

But, it has been a good
year nonetheless. I mean, I left high school, I started college and I
discovered that I could be on my own in another state just fine.

YAY ME!!!!
I left my life in
California and I started a new one in South Carolina....and I think it’s going
rather splendidly! :D

Now that I have done
this, I have discovered that I can do almost anything I want, I just have to
put my mind to it. 

I have also grown a lot
this year (no, not height wise but nonetheless, I have grown). And I realized
something that my mother said when I was younger: that some people never leave
high school. Some people just never grow up. Even when they are at college (as
I have discovered), some people just don't grow up. Though they should, they
just don't. And while this is sad, it is a fact of life. Some people just don't
grow up.

Moreover, this year has
taught me many life lessons that I simply don't have the time or the space to reiterate
here. But, overall I'm not the same me I was on the inside only a few months
ago. But hey, that's life!

Thursday, October 4, 2007

The Citadel Commeth

And the short haired dogs began to invade the citadel...and it was legit...

Saturday, we find out who truly owns the citadel....and i will have a front row seat...

P.S. The citadel is a crazy ridiculous military school in our conference and we are going to go against them this weekend but it is in Charleston so not many people are planning on going but I am and it will be amazing (watch it on SportSouth!)

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Let's Go WoCo!!!!

So, after our AMAZING win against APP State last week, we have a LOT to live up to but, I know that we can. This weekend, we are going to be playing against our rivals, Furman. This game should prove to be an AMAZING long as I can keep the crowd

I will be the leader of the Dog Pack for this one.

Yea, you heard me.

This weekend, my RA Hayes is going to be on duty thus, he cannot go to the game...which means that another has to take the mantel of leader...that is me.... I mean I'm honored and I love it. But I must admit its kinda scary.

So, here are my plans:
1. Ditch the idea of doing "Quintessential" on our chests, save that one for Family Weekend.
2. Get the girls about T-Shirts or Tanks that correspond with what we are going to do!?
3. Guys, lets keep it small, but powerful "GO WOFFORD!" whilst the girls sport "BOO FURMAN!"
4. Let's REALLY get this crowd a cheering! Everyone, rest your voices. Because this game is going to prove who the men and who the puppies are....which do you want to be?
5. Let's just make sure we REALLY have some fun! I mean this one is pretty much everything we've been prepping for all year...lets make it count!

Monday, September 24, 2007

A TON of New Pics!!!

Me and Mike

Chad and Me

The terrier pained onto my back by Caroline

Paining up (Hayes is on the left side)

Velma painting me up

Me and Chad...again

Painting up...Josh Riley

Me and Darby

During Wellness class

Saturday, September 22, 2007


WE DOMINATED APP STATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


This means that by proxy we owned Michigan State as well! YAY US!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me and Caroline

Sami, Caroline, Cam, Marisa, Coach's Head, Me and Chad

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Sadness, major

So, today was the saddest day of my college life so far.
We lost...
we lost to our rivals, Furman...
I mean at least it was only in volleyball...but I mean come on! We will get our revenge....just wait!

My face after the game.

My board after the loss.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Mraz & TheWorkingTitle

WOW, so the concert was AMAZING!!!!! And really cheap! YAY! I have a new AMAZING band I love, TheWorkingTitle, and I love Mraz A TON more! WOW......AMAZING.....YEA

The Picture Blog!

Friday, September 14, 2007


Well, today the WoCo soccer team hosted the Wofford-Adidas Soccer Invitational. I was privileged enough to be asked to be a ball jockey for them. This means that whenever a ball goes out I throw them a new one and pick up the out ball so the game may continue. Luckily, this came with the caveat that I got paid $5 and I received a free T-Shirt (I ended up getting another free one because the Dog Pack loves me and some gift certificates to Wendy's). It was (is) fun....and then the rain came. It started raining after the first game of the night and then as soon as the Wofford-Ashville game started, it poured. The game had to be postponed numerous times because of lightning and currently, we are awaiting the outcome of the game...canceled or not.....But it was (is) fun despite the rain because I get to support the team, and I get to be on the field without actually being on the field. YAY!


BTW, there will be a LOT of pictures posted this weekend...including ice cream social, tomorrow, tonight, dorm room(!) randomness, sprinkles, Milliken study sessions, hug day, "!", and more.........


WOW, that was a long I just had to comment on the sheer length of it lol!


Well, as I sit (sorta lay...whatever) here in Milliken before my next class (starting in 50 minutes) I can't help but to I'm blogging!

First, let's get some things straight, I don't really want to be a bio just doesn't feel right to me. And true, I won't be "behind" but I wouldn't be as ahead as I could (bio major declare-ees were provided the chance to start working on the requirements by taking a higher bio class than Intro to Animal Bio. Moreover, I really do like psychology and I hear that sociology goes right along with it....but before I "officially" declare I will be taking some more classes to bet on my way so don't worry, they really try to make sure that you don't waste too much time. Also, the fact that it is a liberal arts education here at WoCo means that we automatically try a lot of don't worry, I have my bases covered :D

Second, the school blog will be starting soon...I have all the paperwork turned in and today I will be taking a picture which will be the temporary picture (until they can get a professional photographer) for the blog. Then it is just a password, some formatting, and some pictures/typing until I have it ready to go. When that happens, I will be linking this page to that (via a side bar hyperlink) so, just stay tuned.

Third, the weekend! WOW, it feels like only yesterday I was dragging through Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday and wishing that the weekend would just come already....and now I feel like it almost came too soon....but I do have 2 more classes to attend and a Humanities paper to turn in before today's academic day is over (plus some meetings I have to go to to become an Ambassador (tour guide). YAY!

So, the plans for the weekend....hmmmmm

Well, Friday, I plan on seeing American Grafitti here on campus, do a movie night (maybe) of Life is Beautiful (depending) maybe going to the library to see if they have some interesting DVDs to check out. And have Chris stay over because he hates his roomie (poor guy!). Saturday includes the Hub-bub junk sale (see ) and maybe getting a few things....maybe not, depending then on to Venus Pie for lunch (if we have time) and then to the Jason Mraz show at Converse.
And probably some more randomness....maybe a trip to Barnes & Noble to get some more things for the wall....hmmmm....Sunday will include homework, some random dance parties, a Rubi marathon, and some Telemundiales being shown in my room.....and food....and sleep....lots of both of those!

Hopefully, this weekend will be fun (my plans excite me but who know what will end up occurring!) but I know that no matter what....I have 1984 to read and some homemade cookies to look foreword to from Velma

Oh, btw, I got a call back for Wofford on Call which means I could have a REAL job!!!! I know right!? But all in all, I'm looking foreword to my's supposed to be casual, but I think I'm going to be professional casual because I really want it....but only time will tell.

Oops, btw, Wofford on Call is the group of students who call the Alum for money...YAY telemarketing (Troy, watch out!) And what is great is that it is set your own hours (with a min each week) and there are a TON of bonuses for nightly goals, weekly goals, semesterly goals, top seller, ect. I think that this could be fun and helpful to the college....that plus my blogging and the Ambassadors, Wofford is starting to become the school of Tomas..............just wait!

Thursday, September 13, 2007


So, today we had our first biology lab today. And it made me want to become a bio major....grrrrr this would:
1. Put me behind because I'm not taking the classes I should be for a bio major.
2. Interfere with my current plans of being a psychology/sociology double major with a philosophy minor.
GRRRR...idk....maybe I could minor in bio....or I could jst let go....yea, I think I'm gonna do that

Wednesday, September 12, 2007


Well...class.....pretty much that's it, oh and a movie presentation here at WoCo that's free, I think it's some type of an indie film...or something like that.....kewl! Update! It is actually a Cannes Film Festival winner called Days of Glory in the US...aka Indigenes, apparently it takes place in France...idk if that means that it is going to be in French or what but I LOVE subtitled movies so....YAY! And I will add a review n such afterwards, depending on the amount of time I have left afterwards including homework.

Bio. toady went VERY slow and we went VERY fast and it was annoying...but I guess we had to move sometime! LOL
Philo. today went VERY fast YAY (thanks Adam!)
Esp. was a TON of speaking which is still odd since in H.S. we didn't do too much of that...but I guess I have to move along and progress at some point....whatever! LOL

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Weekend Times

The Beacon is an...experience, one that I don't know if I want to relive again, but will do so if it comes to that. Barnes & Noble dancing in the parking lot is FUN! Southern malls are great! Movie nights that end up in randomness and people falling asleep randomly. The sleeping in until noon and then waking up and kicking people out of my room LOL! The randomness goes on! Then comes the making of the T-Shirts for Free Hug Day (pics to come) and the Game...where I was the "!" YAY! (again, pics to come). WOW...this weekend was great, it was an AMAZING time and a GREAT way to end the first actual week of I'm going to

The Week In Review

So...the first week.

Well, there were the three papers that were annoying. There were the massive amounts of scariness that came when Red Chic came out with her class expectations and such which pretty much scared the living daylights out of me...and the rest of the class. Then it goes to Beast who more or less is ADD and has the inflection of a dying stump. Ok, maybe that was a little harsh but EVERYONE in that class falls asleep in the class...luckily Adam gave me the advice of spurring a conversation about the material, he said that it kept him awake in class, it made the class go quicker, and it made Beast like him more. Jean is a nice teacher but after the first two days, she took it VERY fast and made it scary...but whatever. Spreckle is ok...but she is VERY harsh when it comes to pronunciation....oh well tho. I think that I've done ok with it so far. And then there is Mama, she is GREAT she is soooooo happy and she LOVES is soooo nice. She is a breath of fresh air...and I love it.

Now it comes to the social life. It has been GREAT! I have had some GREAT times with GREAT peoples. I love it. They TOTALLY get me! They know EXACTLY what to say (usually) and they know when to come and when to go (usually). I LOVE IT!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!


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...sometimes you just need to yell...and that is how I yell on a blog.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Being Pantsed By a Squirrel

Late nights, crazy times, smelly oysters, interesting teachers, and working for the weekend....This, this is Wofford in all its glory!

Burwell food is "food"...i guess.

But, all in all, college is great!

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

The Impression That I Get

LMAO! WOW! So, Hayes, That was seriously like a great prank that Me n Darbs and Cam did to you lol and your retaliation cannot be as funny as our initial prank have keys into all of our rooms......oops! LOL Whatever, you know that we rule and I can't wait to find out what is going to happen...just make sure I'm not duct taped to my bed....remember I don't have a roomie to cut me off...but feel free to do that to Cam and Darbs lol!


1st Day(s) were GREAT!

1. Bio with Goldey--she seems really cool and like a LOT of fun, I cannot wait for her random fun times!
2. Philosophy with Michelman--he seems really nice, and genuinely interested in everything he talks about...although he also kinda seems a little ADD...but I LOVE THAT!
3. Espanol with Powers--this will be a good year and I know that I will learn a TON of Spanish and through some interesting ways (eg. Telenovelas, peliculas, ect.)
4. Humanities with Sweitzer--The topics we are to discuss sound very interesting!
5. Wellness with Wallace--it seems like a really personal class that will be helpful for my 1st year and more!

Monday, September 3, 2007

Dressing up...for a Football game??

So, the 1st football game was this weekend (Saturday) and it was AMAZING! We RULE! Apparently it's a tradition to dress up for the 1st game of the season so, Velma and I did a 50s collegiate theme together! It RULES! And it was a fun game...but I'm glad that I don't have to dress up (or at all) for the other games...Hayes I'm joining the "W-O-F-F-O-R-D-!" peoples...maybe I can be another "!" lmao! Who knows!

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Super Powers!

So, I totally have to blog this goes!

While eating dinner the other night (two night ago maybe...idk) my RA Hayes came and asked me and my friends what super power we would have if we could. I said I had would be the Aquaman power of talking to fish so that right before I ate them as sushi I could see what they were thinking.

Tomas *using powers*: Aahh...little fish you seem nervous, what's wrong??
Little Fish: I-I'm scared everyone is disappearing!
Tomas *still using powers*: Don't worry little fish--*Tomas takes fish out of the water and decapitates it to make sushi*--now you have disappeared too!

My second power (the one I would REALLY have) was teleportation like Nightcrawler with the whole clouds thing.

Then came the real question..

Would you keep the power if you had to be naked all the time or would you be normal? Obviously I said that I would be naked....this is where the clouds would come in handy because they would be strategically placed (lol)! And so now I am part of the Naked Super Friends! YAY!

Saturday, September 1, 2007

My Three Adopted Children

Today (Friday), we were taken to complete service projects and learn more about our new hope, Spartanburg. And we were split into various groups (including SPACE, Arcadia (!), Downtown, Soup Kitchen, and more). I was put into Arcadia. Arcadia is a school in Spartanburg with approximately 66% Hispanic population, which is the most in all of South Carolina. Moreover, they allow the kids to attend school approximately 48 weeks during the year. And students attend from 7:00am to 6:30pm. The students, according to the principal, are knocking on the doors trying to get us to let them in before 7:00am. Also, all students receive a free breakfast, lunch, and snack. The trip was amazing. Once we arrived, I decided that I was going to adopt three of the children. And they would be mine. And they would all have different mothers. But whatever right!? ☺

P.S. BTW I’ve decided that I’m going to be living there for the next 4 years as a mentor for all the children

Showering In Front of Your Class

So, today (Thursday) we were in our “Summit Adventures” which are all of our breakout sessions (4 of which were held on campus and out of Camp Greystone) and it was AMAZING (I just realized that I say that word WAY too much! lol). This is why a bunch of us went back to the campus last night…and I have to say…I thought that this was INCREDIBLE (yes, I found a new word!)!!! So, the “adventure” that I had was “Pulling Back The Curtain” which was all about theater and which included us doing a performance in front of all of the people (and staff) at Wofford College at the time (many from the Freshman class were still at Camp Greystone). So, after completing a few acting exercises (including me being a Canadian moose who terrorizes people and me having a “great time” with someone whilst her roommate was in the room) we went on to create our show for the rest of the class (there at WoCo) to see…mine was showering: the differences between girls and boys.

“Don’t Drop The Soap: A Day In The Life of The Wofford Showers” was born…which included me sleeping in until about 10 minutes before my 1st class, putting on smelly shorts, using a smelly t-shirt as a towel, dropping trouser in front of my class, washing my face right after washing my butt…. after being frozen for a minute in a butt washing position…all in pantomime in front of my classmates….and the deans….it was GREAT! This all occurred while my friend Tori was a frantic showerer who simply could not get everything together without MAJOR stressing…it was GREAT!

And when it was all over, I realized how much I missed the theater, and how much I missed being on stage and having people talk to me after the show about it. It was AMAZINGLY INCREADIBLE!!!! And I don’t know if I can EVER go back to not doing shows…even if they are just improv. troupes…and I think that I might prefer that…but I don’t know….I guess only time will tell, at here at WoCo I think that I will discover all of this within my 4 years here…but again, only time will tell, but I CAN’T WAIT!

Friday, August 31, 2007


So, living with what is your soon (in 4 years) graduating class is an interesting thing…especially if the friendly peoples at O-Staff are involved. So, after a LONG (almost 24 hours awake) 1st day at college, I woke up (via my friend Lisa and my alarm and because of some “biological clock” that said, “Now it is time to wake up” in a British accent) and took care of my morning essentials (shower, hair, teeth, ect) and as I was just beginning to wind down a little and collect my thoughts about the coming day…here comes this hideous (although altogether hilarious) siren blaring and the voice of an O-Staff member (whose name I probably found out yet forgot) said, “If you can hear my voice…it is time to wake up…we are leaving for the Summit [a camp experience at Camp Graystone in which typical camp activities i.e. The blob, canoeing, tennis, rock walls, water slides, soccer, four square(!), and more are all thrown at the Freshman class to have fun with for about 8 hours] in an hour….Y’all best be getting’ ready class of 2011!!” And I did get ready (though I was already in the process but who cares) and I was able to hang out for another 45 minutes or so until we loaded the buses and headed out for Camp Greystone. It was interesting…to say the least. After all of the “camp activities” we enjoyed (perhaps several times) by the student body, we were introduced to the shag. The shag, if you have not heard of it is the “offical dance of South Carolina” so, it’s pretty much a big deal…and this means that EVERYONE at WoCo had to learn it and this was an awkward time for all, it was like 6th grade dance all over again, learning to dance and having to dance with a random girl you just met…can you say AWKWARD!? But it was fun, and I have to admit, the shag is actually a fun little dance and I will be taking it with me throughout my life…so if nothing else I learned a dance at Wofford! YAY! Then we were given a Wofford orientation 1st, a live band! So we were able to dance (and not just the shag!) and it was F-U-N!!! Then a group of people (or 4 groups of people (to be explained later)) headed back to WoCo because we had BIG PLANS for the coming day. So far, WoCo has been AMAZING! There are AWESOME people (like Nam, Caroline, Lisa, David (times 4), Tori, Maggie, Cameron, Velma, Kelly, Mallory, Matt, Daniel, and a TON more people!). And we had a GREAT time! And hopefully, we will continue!

Thursday, August 30, 2007

First Day

Long lines. Lots of people. Lofting a bed. Television stands. Meeting new friends. Meeting Facebook buddies. Random moments with new people. Long lines. Sleeping through dinner. Meeting families. Apples to Apples. Drama. Wicked. Helen Keller. Salsa. Ceviche. Pillows. Popcorn. Hallway chats. Missing doggies. College humor. Massages. Krispy Kream at 2 AM. Red Bull. Amp. Doubleshot. Coffee. Pictures. Music. Rock. More pictures. Pillowtalk.

Wofford Tuition-$35,000
Energy Dinks and Krispy Kream-$15
Making memories that will last forever and having an AMAZING 1st night at college-PRICELESS

So, after MONTHS of planning (sorta), days spent shopping (yes, DAYS!), and hours (yes, hours not days) of packing I’m finally here at the good ole WoCo…and I have to say….they make for some welcoming people! After getting in line to unload all my dorm stuff I could pack up in my Aunt and Uncle’s BMW I was ready to unload, and before I could even start, the WoCo “O-Staff” (Orientation Staff for all y’all not here) had unloaded EVERYTHING that I had just packed up! WOW….and the bag that I had taken out of the car because it was up with me was out of my hands before I realized that they had finished it all… that takes some dedication and some skill! That first experience here really let me know that the students here were welcoming and that this was going to be a GOOD year! ☺ And then when I got everything worked out in my room (at least a little) there was a nice dinner prepared (yes, it took ALL day!) for me and my mama and all the other students and their parents….it helped again to show how much Wofford cares about the students and it showed me that this transition was going to be a nice and smooth one that would be aided by the wonderful Southern folk! And being able to go to my room and hang out with like 20 people that either I had met that day or at least 1st seen face-to-face for hours….actually, for all night! :D what can I say we had to have Krispy Kream doughnuts and Red Bull….we had cravings, and they had to be satisfied! And even as I write this…probably delirious from a lack of sleep and from too much sugar and caffeine, I know that everything will be ok…I was able to meet a TON of new people from all over the US (Tennessee, New Jersey, Texas, North Carolina, South Carolina, New York, Florida, Alabama, Georgia, and more!) And being able to play a game of Apples to Apples and just invite random people who are walking by to join in and really jus talk and get ot know each other…I mean, It was great!

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Farewell, Pt. 2

Well, my beloved California, this is goodbye. Now, please don’t cry for me just remember our amazing times together and always know that you will be a part of me (and I hope I will be a part of you as well!). Now, I have to say that I understand that we’ve had our bad times (the rainy season, the TPing, the sadness and whatnot but it was great. And this is why I have to say that you have helped me to become what (and who) I am today. Well, of course you already knew that since I grew up with you and only with you! :D But as we all know (but usually fail to recognize or acknowledge) all good things must come to an end (damn you Nelly Furtado now I’m singing that song lol!). We both knew that this day had to come sooner or later but alas it is here. And there is now turning back (I already paid lol) but I believe that the future holds MUCH in store for us (whether it is together or not) Moreover, I have to say that the times that we had together (Disneyland, Half Dome, TPing, the cop, H.S. and whatnot) will always be remembered (even if I have to look at pictures to remember them!) I have to learn to be on my own two feet, I have to learn how to aptly be my own man, I have to learn what type of man I will become (although I have my thoughts) and most importantly, I have to learn….WoCo (or Wofford College for you uninformed people) will allow me to do all of these things and most importantly to me, I know that I can have fun and GROW there myself, without anybody there attempting to hold my hand. I know that it will be hard, but I also know that I have to undergo this journey (like any traditional hero, thanks Mrs. Mitchel!) I also know that there will be challenges and hardships that will seem impossible but that I will get/find the strength to endure them (again, thanks Mrs. Mitchel!) but just like the typical hero’s journey I will eventually defeat my challenges and come out the victor and I will be stronger and have gained a reward (again, Mrs. Mitchel!) for my exploits and triumphs. And hey, I can take the limit of my greatness using calculus! (That’s for you Pagani!)…or I could always NOT do that! And this will be fun, and I know that because I have met so many interesting and fun people from Facebook and from Wofford FYI that I cannot wait to meet and who help to make this journey into the unknown all the easier. There is Nam, Brendan, David, Lisa and Torie…and these people have helped me to recognize the AMAZINGNESS that will be the next four years of my life. Their constant support and our random conversations about college and what we are planning to do and the anticipation for it all that is driving us mad help to make me feel more at home already…. and for that I am COMPLETELY grateful! Well, California and all those that I am leaving behind, here is to you! I will miss you but we all knew that this had to come…........and we will all move on with our lives, whether we think we can right now or not! I will miss you my friends, and don’t think that you can’t call me! Because you CAN!!!!

Saturday, August 18, 2007


Sitting here, I've realized that almost is probably the worst word ever. Period, that's it, it is the worst word in the history of the world. I mean almost, it technically means: not quite or very nearly. Its more or less the absence of being done or being happy, or being anything. I mean, I'm ALMOST done living here in California, I'm ALMOST ready to go to South Carolina, I'm ALMOST ready to move on with my life, I ALMOST feel as if I can be happy for the rest of my life, I'm ALMOST about to meet my summer-time buddy, I ALMOST everything. I just don't get it. Why would anybody want to be ALMOST. I am so ready to be done with all these ALMOST's they are driving me mad! Why in the world should I let my life ALMOST be ruled by ALMOST's. I just don't get it. I really want ALMOST to be erased from my vocabulary. But then, could I ever be complete? Do you have to first be ALMSOT before you can be complete? I mean can you go from nothing to complete? If you could would that mean that I could walk outside and meet the person I am to spend the rest of my life with? If so, then I want a certain person to come by so we can see if life really can work that way. But back to ALMOST, it simply is the perfect way to describe my life right now. I am ALMOST.....I'm in between everything right now, I'm nearing the end of one life and I'm nearing the beginning of my next (hopefully better) life in the South. But, I haven't taken that first step. I mean I understand that "the first step is the hardest". And I am constantly reminded of that by those who have traveled before me but my problem is, I simply don't know whether I haven't taken the first step because I haven't seen it yet because its not yet time, or because I'm not ready to leave everything that I've known, grown up with, felt comfortable with, and needed. And everything is about to change....well ALMOST...

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Farewell Pt. 1

Wow, I'm finding out that it is REALLY hard to say goodbye to all that you have, to all that you have known, to all that you have held dear, and to all that you feel safe with.... I't hard to know that you might not ever see these familiar faces ever again, walk these familiar streets or go to these familiar stores and restaurants. Well, that is what I have to do in less than 8 days. In less than 8 days, I'm leaving California, I'm leaving the 209 and I'm going to be going off to college in South Carolina and I might be there for the rest of my life, or at least the next 4 years. And while I'm very happy to go and happy to be branching off on my own and happy to be meeting new people, it's hard to know that those I love are like a 6 hour plane flight away...but I guess that is what I wanted. I signed up for school away from my family to escape the possibility of being stifled but I can't help but to fear. I mean I know some people who will be there already but still, this is only through the internet and it's different, knowing someone online and knowing someone in person....but I guess that I'm going to find out the truth soon enough! I know I sound COMPLETELY scared to go, but I am really excited as well, it's just that well, the first step is the hardest. BUT I AM READY TO GO...i hope!